nineteen

the last gift that I gave to my dad was a "Synchronicity" tape by The Police for father's day in 1991. the song "every step you take" will always make me think of him.

I cannot believe that my dad has been gone for nineteen years. today. and even after nineteen years, I still have some days where my grief feels so thick that it's hard to see through it.

And I will say that one "gift" of having a parent as your personal angel is that they are always with you. always. when I'm in one of those moments where I am feeling completely overwhelmed, I can almost hear him saying "you're doing a great job goose, just hang in there." and I'm okay.

emma asks me quite frequently, if "I miss my daddy" and I always say "everyday. I miss him every.day." but on this day. each year. I really miss him. and my heart aches.